staying at the center!

in the midst of a relatively productive morning, a fleeting, but profound thought came to me.

It is so easy to slip out of a space of contentment, or self-reflection, of self-love, or humility at the recognition that His grace and mercy are always always always surrounding me and overwhelming me. The temptation to compare myself with others, their accomplishments, milestones and so much more…is heavy.

But then I remember that I am fearfully and wonderfully made (Ps 139:14), and that my steps are ordered (Ps 37:23) and that His plan for me is good, perfect and pleasing (Rom 12:2).

So…I choose JOY! I choose GROWTH! I choose GRACE! I choose the JOURNEY! I choose TRUST, FAITH and a SURRENDERED heart! I choose to be at the CENTER of His PRESENCE!

over (feeling)

Someone asked me the other day, why I have not blogged for some time. i told them that I had been busy, travelling, working, family-ing, being in the moment…bla bla bla.

As I spoke.. the inside thoughts that have been silenced and that of late, have converted themselves into unexpected pools of water, began to run around my heart and mind until finally…it hit me.  I have not written for a while..not in my journal, not in letters, not on this blog…because I am over-feeling.

2015 has been a year of the most intense emotions, realisations, thoughts, accomplishments and disappointments, pains and joys, laughs and tears! And it is practically impossible to put them all into words, so why bother trying right? WRONG!

I will not be able to capture every emotion, but I promise to capture and express and share the lessons!

2014 was #purposeunfolding; 2015 the year of #permissiontoBE and with that came the process of allowing myself to not succeed in EVERYTHING..to fail, to lose, to hurt, to cry, to love when not loved, but most of all, to pick myself up and make some choices for ME for 2016.

2016 …my year of #LovingGodLovingME!

Sounds so simple… and almost cliche, but this is probably the toughest thing/ perspective I have ever decided to commit to. Pourquoi? Because this one involves the action of LOVE!

ˈ/ləviNG/, (noun) – the demonstration of love or great care

LOVING GOD! What does it actually take to love HIM, my maker, creator, lover of my soul, Giver of Grace, King of Kings and Lord of Lords…and He who loves me unconditionally? It’s not about a laundry list… that I know for sure, but its about waking up every morning to “whatsapp”, chat with and check in with HIM, commit it ALL to HIM, hang out with HIM, listen to HIM and love on HIM!

#lovingGodlovingME

LOVING ME! When did I stop loving me, to the point that 2016 would have to be a year of getting back to the place where I put me first (after God)…make the right choices for ME, be unapologetic about what is good and best for ME, recognise that I can not love others if I do not love ME, invest in ME (body, spirit and soul)?

Today is the first Monday of 2016…. today, I get started on a perspective that like the previous 2…I pray will last with me FOREVER! And I promise to try and dedicate abit more time to sharing what I learn and how I grow and how I LOVE!