calling it as it is…

Toni Braxton, in her comeback album, has a song called ‘ I wanna be your baby’..she has just spoken my heart…yaaani! Its a risk…its vulnerability at its core…its where I am at right now…its scary!

I’m gonna put it out there. Lay it on the line. And even if it breaks my heart. I’m giving it a try.
Not waiting fot tomorrow confessing it today
So baby here it goes I’m out of time. It’s do or die.

I wanna be your baby …Won’t you be my man? I wanna be you soldier …When you’re too weak to stand.
I wanna be your baby, Be the end of your day. Forever in your life Forever by your side Forever I’ll stand

I’m hanging on a thread, I don’t care if I fall.
But I ain’t gonna fall even though I don’t know if you feel me at all
I’m ready to be right or wrong with you, ready for my heart to win or lose.
I’m ready to give all I’ve got to you. Boy, I want you to know……

So I am saying I love you. Ain’t holdin nothing back.
And I’m saying I want you I want you to call my name.
And I wait on you forever. And I promise that. cuz I Love you.
I love and

I wanna be your baby …Won’t you be my man? I wanna be you soldier …When you’re too weak to stand.
I wanna be your baby, Be the end of your day. Forever in your life Forever by your side Forever I’ll stand

knowing

i think i finally realise that i now know that it really happened.

i didn’t say i believed it, but now i can say that i know. i know that it hurts. i know that it sucks. i know that i feel lost and angry and abandoned. i know that i feel overwhelmed, disappointed and cheated. i know that i want to cry and can’t cry as often as i wish i could. i know that i need to take care of me. i know that i do not fully know how to…but that i have to try.

i know that life has not been the same and it never will be. i know that i need to move along…not move on..just move along and face tomorrow and know that my daddy is still my daddy and always will be.

knowing means acting. means getting things moving. putting and executing plans. waking up and smelling the coffee. hitting the road running and doing everything to make a difference!

knowing is scary…

knowing is necessary…

knowing is healing…